I spent the majority of this past week becoming a couch potato. Yes, I got a few things done, but mostly my mind was elsewhere. I was in the past, de-cluttering old pictures. I was in the future, daydreaming about my future job. I was in the TV, binge-watching Netflix. I was in my computer, online-window-shopping. (Is there a term for that?)
And even when I was doing those things, I wasn't really doing them. I was being a bystander in my own life. Then I read something that really stuck with me.
"IN A WAY, THE PAST IS MERE MEMORY,
THE FUTURE IS JUST OUR THOUGHT,
A PLAN OR AN IDEA.
THE PRESENT IS REAL."
The 14th Dalai Lama
As cheesy as it sounds, this moment, right now, is the only thing any of us have. I'm not going to beat myself up over what I did or didn't do. Neither should you. Instead of agonizing over "lost time" and going down a spiral of regret and depression, choose to be here. Be now. Whatever it is that you're doing.
While thinking about this post, I realized that all those activities weren't a waste of my time. I got rid of some digital clutter. I began subconsciously preparing for my job. I watched TV shows that I wanted to watch, no compromises. And I found some really cool, eco-friendly brands that I can shop from when the time comes. But to be completely honest, I was indulgent in all of those activities. They overwhelmed my ability to be here. So I suggest being honest with yourself, too. What is it that's keeping you away from right now?